Sunday, March 29, 2009 1:32 AM

♥wake up late today..
it's so not me so everyone was like waiting for me...
wahahaha it's the 1st time man..
when to cell group today E316 and N317

i was trying i was really trying..
but still not the same as before..
the feeling is not the same..
when we sing worship song the same song but the feeling is not the same at all..
why izzit like that?? i really got try i really did..
after cell group i when outside and sit..
then someone which i'm not saying who..
ask me what am i doing outside??
..................
then i was playing my nails..
then the person say play your nail again..
then when he or she when in..
i really think that he/she is mad at me???
crab... when your feeling so down and thing..
then ppl get mad at you...
i feel super sad la.. and i still have to act that i'm fine..
my heart was really broken.. this super pain feeling hurts alot alot...

so i when up and look at the sky..
and i was crying alitter...
then lucas came out and talk to me..
so we are siting there chating alitter..
it's really nice to have someone beside you when your down..
as in for me i like it la..
maybe the person dun need to talk just as long as he/she is beside me i'll feel very happy le..
so i really wanna thanks lucas... he have been good.. happy me talking to me..
david oso la.. all the nice ppl agourd me... i love them so much..
it's really good to have frens like them...

someone ask me just now..
(what you wan us to do???)
then i say (i wan you all to be happy..)
then the person reply...
(you happy we happy)
how o be happy man???
like who is dun wanna be happy...
i WANT to but there's alot of sadness in my life now..
i wanna have fun like before,
i wanna be carzy like before.
i wanna all of this..
but how???
for the time being i'm just going to act happy..
so that you guys and be happy..