Thursday, March 26, 2009 11:36 PM

♥yeah!! got somewhere i can go to le..
i happy but i dun dare to be too happy, coz if i'm to happy he is going to take it away from me..
someone told me not to blame God so i blame myself lors..
i really hate myself so much why can't i do things that ppl like??
everything i do i hurt myself so hard..
everything just can't be the same anymore..
i know that one day very soon all of them will hate me all of them will get tired of me..
i wanted to run away why are you stopping me??
i'm good at lie-ing what why can you tell that i'm lie-ing..
if you can't tell then i can just run away from everything..
i really dunno what i wan man..
when i run away from you just i feel so sad and my heart feels so pain..
but if i dun go i feels like i'm just faking,,
then after everything i'll think and think again... sadness is everywhere???
i know you guys wan me to come back but i'm really scard..
you ask me before what is stopping me??
i guess it's myself..