My Blabs

2010-08-03T19:29:00.003+08:00

woohoooooo tmr's gonna be awesome!!

1st

Santosa

gonna head down to the beach for some suntanning,

and hopefully a swim too..

2nd

SINGfest 2010!!

It's will be at Fort canning park,

Singapore Music festival so awesome!!

lot of ppl will be there Katy perry and more woohoo

3rd

Cubbing

woohoo clubbing will awesome be funnnn

and yet it will be after a music concert

tmr's gonna be a blast

and the best i'm gonna stay over at Tara's

2010-07-29T18:36:00.002+08:00

RTW trip in 2013

can't wait till that,

my traveler life is gonna start

being a traveler going to places there i never when before

facing all kind of crap

leaning more about myself

pushing myself to my own limit

ok all this sound so fun and unreal

save save save!!

2010-05-29T13:06:00.002+08:00

Counting down babe! Counting down.. haha

3, 2, 1!

3 more days to go till i get my lovely pay

woohoo pay day..

awesome!!

i can't wait to go shopping and meet up with my girls

miss them so much movie date lol!!

why's my party mode always on??

ermm.........

Can't wait till Friday gonna go party with my golden fren

haven see her for the longest time

like almost a year!!

hell no..

hahahas

let dance.. XOXO

--iheartyou--

2010-05-17T15:06:00.002+08:00

feeling lucky..

lucky that i found someone like you,

okay maybe you found me first..

you fill my life with joy laughter and happiness.

you might be so far away from me

but i feel you so close to me

in my heart is where you'll be :)

when ever we talk there is alway a smile on my face

XXX

--iheartyou--

2010-05-11T01:07:00.004+08:00

For my first pay

I got myself a new Watch

from FCUK.. heehee awesome-ness!

got this but in a different color..

Arr-ness i'm running out of money,

and it's only the 11th..

Mother day have just passed by

I got Mummy a GUESS bag

And a belt from GUESS for two of my aunt's..

Cash running low..

And 2 more birthdays for this month..

YILING GONNA SAVE SAVE SAVE

--iheartyou--

2010-05-08T14:53:00.001+08:00

Bad firday night..

out of no where, i'm feeling empty in my heart

2010-04-24T08:06:00.002+08:00

Dislike the feeling for falling sick

i've work up a few times

and now i can't sleep

my head is hurting

body feels really hot, but skin feels really cold..

it's really bad..

2010-04-15T23:48:00.002+08:00

last night was the FIRST time i got drunk

i did some many stupid things

lost of words

but sorry coz i didn;t mean it

2010-04-13T20:13:00.002+08:00

2010-04-05T22:49:00.002+08:00

ARRRRRRRRRR!!!!

my laptop cable just BURN!!!!!

that means no internet for the rest of my life!!!!

shit this man!!

i need to use my lappy

everyday!!!

kill me kill me

SOSOSOSOOSOSOSOSOO

i need to do something about it

like NOW!!!!

2010-04-02T23:15:00.004+08:00

Day one of work - (part-time)

Oh gosh i'm so tired right now..

I kinda like working more then schooling

Coz you'll get pay after the month haha!!

Wanna go shopping so badly

was at the city working today

when i walk out of the shop, i'm working in

my heart when boom

need to shop, NEED TO SHOP, need movie's, need to hang out..

so many things i wanna do!!

i'm a young adult now..

woohoo..

iheartyou

2010-04-01T22:53:00.005+08:00

Enddings

here comes the end of my school life

chapter 6 of my life have come to a close..

it's pretty good coz i really hate that school!!

i really think that there are cheating ppl's money

we has human can't turn time back but to move forward

Chapter 7 has begin - Working life

i guess it time for me to grow up ya winkwink

should stop playing and to be more serious

i don't know, but i'm just a high-per kind of person

what to do i'm yiling, this is in my blood.

My goals for the next two years..

- Work in the same company for a year or 2

- Get my Driving license

- To fall in love again

- Pick up french

- Pick up spanish

- Save out my 1st $10000

- MIGHT lean driving a motorcycle/bike..

hahas but if my ppl know about i'm so gonna die.. awesome

After this 2 year i'm gonna work on my dream

to be a Tour Leader!!!

but i'm already working on my dream

HA i'm get exp now..

GO YILING GO!!

iheartyou

2010-03-30T22:45:00.002+08:00

dislike the feeling of unloved

lol right???

i just needa feel more love now a days

crap now i'm depress

coz i'm unloved

boohoo

---- i'm so gonna get you back

making me feel this way arr-ness

i'm gonna make you feel sorry hahaha

crazy-ass

iheartyou

2010-03-26T16:41:00.002+08:00

awesome-ness

i got a full time job now

starting on 5th April

cant wait to work

i can see myself rich hahas

opps :x

and i got a part time job too

and it's starting on the 2nd April

crap i'm so gonna die

hahhas

and i have exam on the 1st

hahhaha busy month for yiling

then the month after april

i think i'm gonna be rich hahhas

shopping here i come

2010-03-20T22:58:00.001+08:00

According to you

I'm stupid

I'm useless

I can't do anything right

According to you

I'm difficult

Hard to please

Forever changing my mind

I'm a mess in a dress

Can't show up on time

Even if it would save my life

According to you

But according to him

I'm beautiful, incredible

He can't get me out of his head

According to him

I'm funny,irresistible

Everything he ever wanted

Everything is opposite

I don't feel like stopping it

So baby tell me what I got to lose

He's into me for everything I'm not

According to you

I'm boring

I'm moody

You can't take me any place

According to you

I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away

I'm the girl with the worst attention span

You're the boy who puts up with it

According to you

But according to him

I'm beautiful,incredible

He can't get me out of his head

According to him

I'm funny, irresistible

Everything he ever wanted

Everything is opposite

I don't feel like stopping it

So baby tell me what I got to lose

He's into me for everything I'm not

According to you

I need to feel appreciated

like I'm not hated

Oh, no

Why can't you see me through his eyes?

It's too bad you're making me dizz-ay

According to me

you're stupid

you're useless

you can't do anything right

But according to him

I'm beautiful, incredible

He can't get me out of his head

According to him

I'm funny, irresistible

Everything he ever wanted

Everything is opposite

I don't feel like stopping it

Baby tell me what I got to lose

He's into me for everything I'm not

According to you [you, you]

According to you

I'm stupid

I'm useless

I can't do anything right

2010-03-18T22:36:00.005+08:00

feeling awesome!!!

Sentosa was really really fun

when swimming in the beach got tan

and now ouch SUNBURN!! it's hurts badly

one of my classmate was being really nice to me BY HITTING MY SUNBURN!!

hahas OUCHHHHH.. but it's was fun coz i get to hit him back wahhaha

i did like everything i could to hurt him

but he just cant feel a thing.. (thick skin)

i kick him, i punch him, i bit him, i whacked him, i pinch him

NOTHING WORKS!! he is just too strong..

i punch him at the stomach,

and he still don't feel the pain then he show me his 6 packs!!

OMG thats HOT.. hahas

randomly he told me that he thinks that i'm a lesbian!!

coz i told him that day that i'm going out with my girl fren's

i'm so not a lesbian.. i love guys.. i'm in to guys LOL

the football match was awesome (funny)

it was the 1st time i watch football

on tv yes i did watch like for 5 or 10 mins

i'm just not in to it, till ytd wow i didn't know that football is so nice/cool

one of my group-mate he's playing for Young Lions

so he took tickets for us theres like 7 of us

but end up i when there alone!!

i feel piss-ed off at the same time upset

it's like your treating someone as your fren

thats is why you took ticket for them

and ended up only one when to support you

how sad is that? it's so heart breaking

bad ppl!!

2010-03-16T22:46:00.003+08:00

part 1 - Sentosa

i'm gonna skip school.. hahaha

meet my old shcool-mate's then we'll go down to the beach!!

woohoo i can't wait!!!

haven seen them for a long time..

8 of us are meeting up.. Sentosa here we come..

part 2- Football match

awesome i haven been to a real football match before

and here we goooooooooo...

one of my class mate right now he's in the team 'Young lions'

which is pretty cool coz it's a national team of Singapore

and a singaporean like me.. i kinda dunno anything about the team

coz i'm not really a news person..

i think it's time for a change, i should go get newspaper everyday and read them

hahas so i could know whats happen to the world..

hahhas...

2010-03-07T23:10:00.002+08:00

believing that something new is gonna happen!!!

this time before i make a move i'm gonna stop and think

really need to lean that, stop and think!! HAHA

turning to the next page of my life

i'm asking myself

what do i wanna be?

i'm a still gonna fool around with my life?

am i gonna trow all that away?

what if you die tmr, will you have regret's?

telling myself it's the start of something new!!!

life's a little upside-down now.. but it will get better soon.. woo yeah!! i can do it!! keeheeheehee

2010-03-05T02:57:00.001+08:00

tell the box,,

all the things i wanna say

2010-02-28T16:45:00.001+08:00

"Better In Time"

It's been the longest winter without you

I didn't know where to turn to

See somehow I can't forget you

After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock

Who's there no one

Thinking that I deserve it

Now I realize that I really didn't know

If you didn't notice you mean everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is I'm gonna be OK

[Chorus:]

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to

It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV

Without something there to remind me

Was it all that easy

To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh

Hurt my feelings but that's the path

I believe in

And I know that time will heal it

If you didn't notice boy you meant everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is I'm gonna be OK

[Chorus:]

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to

It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me

It's time I let you go

So I can be free

And live my life how it should be

No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you

Yes I will

[Chorus: X2]

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to

It'll all get better in time

2010-02-27T01:45:00.003+08:00

kinda miss ____________________________.

running out of thing to say

running out of time

the gap to getting bigger

maybe this is how it should be

but why do i feel sad??

forgotten

2010-02-25T23:32:00.001+08:00

2010-02-19T23:46:00.000+08:00

flash backs

2010-02-19T02:25:00.002+08:00

when clubbing for the 1st time last night
i like it there!!!

fun!!!!

cant wait for tara to get back t singapore then we can go clubbing!!

like really crazy kind!!!

OMG!! we'll get so crazyyyyyy!!!

fun-ness

missing you

2010-02-14T02:55:00.002+08:00

got a song in my head... and that remind me of you...

2010-02-13T23:44:00.002+08:00

remb someone told me this..

(loving is never easy)

and at the point of view, i was thinking no way

loving ppl or things is so easy..

but today i have to say

(loving someone is never easy and it never will be, coz it's love)

2010-02-12T22:02:00.004+08:00

OMG WHAT THE HELL..

hello miss sexy :o) how are you doing today? (good i hope) well...my name is alex 28 im 6'1ft and 195lbs single and i live in pasadena, ca (about 20min from los angeles) i work in real estate! im new 2 myspace and i would love for us 2 get 2 know each othier better (i think ur a very beautiful and very sexy woman) do you have yahooIM?

he give me his email and phone number.. o.O

sexy your head ar!!!
beautiful till you see you'll know how shitty i am

eeeeeeeeeee....
gonna go bitch with my fren now..

2010-02-05T00:51:00.002+08:00

the last thing i would like to know..

why is it the first news that came??

making up lies to bluff myself.. then now?!

just one call!! one call!!! ar..

you know what?? look at my face i dun care

HA!

2010-02-01T01:22:00.000+08:00

believe me, sometime i really wish that i could hate myself abit lesser..

2010-01-27T09:08:00.001+08:00

OMG!!!!!!! i finish my assinment le!!!!

i didnt it on my own!!!!!!!

i'm so happy!!!!!!

i'll never forget this!!!!!!

waiting for it to print then i can go sleep le

ARRRRR!!! yiling rox!!!!

2010-01-27T08:19:00.002+08:00

228!!! yeahhhhhhhh

one more example and conclusion and refernce

then i'm ready to print!!! arrrr happy me!!!!

soon soon soon!!!

i really take a day to finish 2 assinment!!

wow

2010-01-27T07:51:00.001+08:00

340 more!!!

my ass is hurting

eyes are burning

my heart is die-ing

i am stone-ing!!!

eeeeeeeeee

2010-01-27T07:15:00.002+08:00

481 more world then i can go and sleep leh...

yiling jai you!! you can do it!!

oh the sun is up.... shit-ness

i dun care after when i finish doing it ad printing it

i'm going to bed.. i'm gonna sleep!!!

wake up le then go bend it then go school hand it in

then i'm FREE!!!

aint going to class tmr

look at me... I DUN CARE!!!

2010-01-27T04:50:00.001+08:00

901 word more to go!!! yiling you can do it!!!

jai you!! gogogo!!!

nothing is gonna stop you...

your this close to freedom!!!
cant wait........ wow!!!

2010-01-27T00:51:00.000+08:00

if Your really there can You come and fix my heart and me???

2010-01-27T00:34:00.002+08:00

yiling is just a msg why are you tearing???

stop it stop it!!! your so useless litter bit then cry

why are you all doing this to me???

i was suppose to be over it...

i was suppose to not feel a thing...

why must tell me that you miss me???

you can keep it to yourself ma

why why why???

come on yiling do your assignment

you can do it!!! see your finishing le ma

jai you yiling!!! gogogo

you can do it!!!!

2010-01-26T23:57:00.003+08:00

arrrrrrrr.. ass hurting been siting down here for super long!!!

tired la!!! i dun wanna do le la.... must read so many thing!!!!!!

mind keep flying off!!!! feel like crying..... feel like giving up!!!!

i dun wanna talk to anyone right now... its so supid!!!!!

hate myself so muchhhhh

2010-01-26T23:29:00.001+08:00

it takes like forever to finish the stupid assignment!!!!!!!!!!!! so pissed off right now!! WHT!!! what do you want me to do!!! arrrrrr!!!

2010-01-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

gloomy

2010-01-26T17:18:00.002+08:00

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

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hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what are you doing this to me????

life is already super bad for me. why are you still doing this????

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

2010-01-24T05:45:00.004+08:00

what a week!!!

didn't when to school for 2 days

coz i was really sick

it when off for like 2 days and now it's coming back (''c)

cant eat much for 1 week plus

this is after i'm done eating!! see the hole???

23 jan 10

when shopping with ting ting

how awesome is this???

the 1st time she give me money!!!

and we when to coffee bean she pay for everything!!!

i know what your thinking... no she is not working hahas

how i wish she will be always be this good to me heehee

buy things for me, pay for my food spend time together

haha yiting i know your reading this!!!!!!

wahhahahahah

one more thing

nikki's soon soon...

is coming like the really really soon

so happy!!! will be meeting her on the 5 feb

after i come back to singapore!!!

we gonna do our nails!!!

i wanna do many many things with her

miss her so muchhhhhhh

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

so happy!! i'm a happy teen keeheeheehee

2010-01-23T02:41:00.002+08:00

Meeting you was fate

Becoming your friend was a choice

But falling in love with you was beyond my control

2010-01-21T21:36:00.001+08:00

2010-01-19T21:10:00.002+08:00

dress (20+) + 1 new =21+
skirt 12
jacket 11
vest 4 + 2 new = 6
pants (15+) + 3 new = 18+
shots (8+) + 1 new = 9+
top (56+) + 11 = 67+
legging and tights 10
scarf 17

belt 34+ share with sis de

earrings 58

necklace 43+

bracelet 13

rings 15

not bad i have a lot of everything

some more what i can count???

happy coz i get to trow lotzzz of things

trow 5 footwear and many tops that i dun wan anymore

2010-01-17T22:03:00.002+08:00

i dun care anymore

yiling come on stand strong!!!

what is the pass stay's the pass

what is gone is gone

there is no more turning back

being sad or happy it's in you own hands

no one and stop the time from going on and on

so wake up!!!

things might look or feel like shit now

it will be over soon

so stay strong and be strong

this is my life i'm not gonna make unhappiness stop me from going on

i'm gonna live my life for me and only me

no one and stand in my way

no matter how sad i feel or how tired i am

or how may tears came down my eyes

i'm still gonna stand strong

yiling be happy!!!

ppl come and go they cant stay with you forever

so remb if the old dun go the new cant come in

there will aways be new

it will never be easy to say goodbye

but that is the word

the new is here you just need to get us to it

everyday is a new day!!!

i think that my father can tell that there is something wrong with me

i was sitting out side the house

and he was asking me

why you never go alleluia

idk what to say so i said just didnt go lor, lazy la. next week next week i will go.

idk why but i just really dun feel like talking

yiling never off her phone

only when there is no batt or when the batt is die-ing then i'll off

or when i need to take a plane which i need to off my phone then i'll off it

but this two day my phone was off

i really dun wanna ans anymore dun wanna ans anyone

i did on my phone for awhile coz i needed to

it was my sis 21st bday party ytd

how fuck up is this when you die-ing there

and you still need to talk and be happy coz there is a party at your place??

i was in my room and i didnt want to come on

but my ah ma ask me to go down

unwillingly i when down

then my bro dunno any thing then he keep say me and say me

no one understannd

a other thing is that from the trip till back in singapore

i haven talk to yiting

i dun want to talk to her

i hate her

everyone think that i'm wrong coz i'm not talking to her

but they dunno what happen

i'm tired to fight i'm tired to talk

i just dun wanna talk

many things have been happening

when will this end??????????

2010-01-13T22:33:00.003+08:00

OMG!!! i just hurt someone who loves me

i'm so sorry

it's better to tell you that i'm playing wif you

then 1 month later i tell you that we should not be together

just trying to make you be ready for whatever is gonna happen on the 8th

it just feel so wired

idk what to do anymore

i'm a bad girl

i'm really bad!!!

arrr!!!

why things like that keep happening to my life

why cant i get someone that i love and loves me at the same time???

why is it always like this???

the person i like dun like me

the person i dun like likes me???

stop liking me ppl that i dun like

i dun wanna hurt anyone anymore

feel super bad right now!!

2010-01-13T14:04:00.002+08:00

was cleaning my room last night

trow away things that i dun wan

put thing is my mother's room

keep keep keep

trow trow trow

hahas i found out something i like to do

trowing things

and buying new things

i use to have alot of pic on th door

i change then to the top of my bed

like it more this way.. NICE

is having to mood to do some shopping leh

who wants to go shopping wif me???

2010-01-11T20:21:00.002+08:00

yah!!! you saw the pic

NAILS!!!!

keehee.. now i'm super in to nails design

i think it's super nice awesome right?? DIY

i lean it on youtube

this is my 2nd time doing nails design on my nails

so it's not that nice but still kinda fun

gonna do more more more

when this is peeling off

a big thank you to AT

2010-01-05T23:33:00.001+08:00

like it when ppl hold my hand

feel so save and loved

2010-01-04T09:53:00.004+08:00

i'm lazy tired to ans ppl

ppl always ask me why am i not going to church?

and i'll ans (idk or i dun wan to)

but why i dun wanna go?? i kinda lost the reason behind it

lost in my own mind, double minded, half hearted.

after all i'm just a person with litter faith.

i'm really sick of ppl asking me.

i'm not going means i'm not going!

you dun need to ask so much and you dun need to know anything about me

so be it.. let me be the way i am

i really just do not wanna go

i feel so tired of going there

when i'm awake i oso dun wanna go

i'm scare of going there

i dunno who am i anymore

why do i go there

idk and i dun wanna know

idk if i believe in Him or not

i'm just scare of the ans i'll get

so i dun wanna go

2009-12-31T15:10:00.002+08:00

why

why do i have to give in to you every time

why cant i dun care about you

why cant i stop loving you

why is it you

why do i have to help you so much

why you say yes and i dun dare to say no

so many why's

2009-12-29T00:08:00.001+08:00

When I'm down and all alone

When nothing seems to matter

When I lose my hope

When I'm sad and confused

When it all gets turned around and 'round

I can't seem to reach for solid ground

When everything I've believed in seems untrue

2009-12-27T19:00:00.002+08:00

2009-12-24T01:13:00.002+08:00

have i move on???

thinking that i had,

but coming back to the land of sad-ness,

my heart is still moving

it's still shaking,

deep in me what do i want???

i cant go on like this

there is sad-ness and happy-ness in life

what about now

2009-12-15T10:15:00.001+08:00

should stop missing, start moving

9 more days to go...

so mix up right now...

dunno what to do and dun wanna do any thing...

2009-12-10T17:40:00.006+08:00

at chile now!!!
so far its good hahha

day 1 took the plane for 14 hours than

day 2 reach paris.. when sightseeing then go shopping!!! only 3 hours to shop so i didnt buy anything much there coz the key point of shopping there is to get more LV bags.. hahas.. and my lovely pa pa bye me one!! and the one i was eyeing on.. hahah loving it.. so all we get there was 2 bag 1 for my sis 1 for me.... then go back to the airport and take a plane for 14 hours again!! ass pain like crap la.. it´s really the wired feeling...

day 3 arrival in santiag- chile in the morning, then have some lunch and all waiting to book in the hotel. so it have been 3 day then we didnt bath whats thing??? hahahs... then after i litter rest then we when out for dinner, the view was awesome coz it´s on top of the hill hahhas

day 4 city tour see alot of places take lots of pic when outside the house of government. oh we when to the vineyard too the (Concha y Toro Vineyard) they have really good wine´s there.. the place is cool.. hahas nice so get to drink alot ok maybe not alot but ya.. then when for dinner good food...

what i thnk about chile:

-it long hahha like really long hahha..

-the wind here is cold but at the same time the sun is suner hot it´s like burning my skin..

- 90% ppl here are not so rich or poor and only 10% of the ppl here are rich..

- the county is really poor it´s something like kl, jb like that...

- the ppl here are slow like they take thier on time coz they think that you work hard and not working hand you still get the same pay so whats the point..

then i cant remb much le... hahha

today i´m gonna take a flight to Puerto montt.. 1 hour only GOOD which i think it´s still in chile haha blog about it soon.. hope that the next hotel got com too...

miss you ppl hahah

2009-12-07T16:05:00.002+08:00

the day that most of my family members are look for...

it's feels like a normal day to me

kinda a bad day... sain

fight tonight i gonna go buy buy buy things...

yeah-ness

hope that papa really buy me one more LV bag

heehee i so wanna buy bags la

gonna stop at pairs for 10++ hour

loving it...

i miss you so so muchhhhh

byebye ppl

till i come back

i'll miss you guys

loves

2009-12-04T16:58:00.003+08:00

going to south america this year

chile, argentin and brazil

i dunno why, ok maybe i know why but i just dun wanna know why

whatever

not really looking forward to this trip man

every year i will count down to wif a heart jumping out

this year i just feel sain

coz of my sad-ed life

i have no mood to go

maybe i guess i'll have fun when i get there

but now crap...

and yet i'm flying off on monday

what is this????????

i'm be going to the pic place

before 2012 ya. if not i will not get to see this anymore

hhaha

2009-12-03T22:44:00.000+08:00

felt like a hypocrite and a phony...

strong word but still

2009-12-02T17:13:00.002+08:00

this is so crazy!!!
why the guy i like dun like me

and many others that i dun like likes me???

i dun want anyone but him

so go way ppl

you'll fine so one right someday

sorry

2009-12-01T00:35:00.003+08:00

had an awesome day today!!! WOW!!

but why do i feeling like crying now

hear this song (let me be myself) by 3 doors down

pls for this one time let me be myself

so i can shine, wif my own life, let me be myself

let me be me

what is myself???

who is yiling???

2009-11-29T22:07:00.002+08:00

when ice skating today wow fun-ness

i fell like twist my ass and my hand hurts

and my hand was bleeding alitter

but it worth it na... so fun

i wanna go do it again... it's really good

like i wanna shout it's ok to shout there no one will care

haha if you get what i mean... a lot of ppl will be shouting there...

the 1st fell was the worst the one the make me bleed!!!

thanks to OPA i'm like so super scare and he still put my hard and go super fast

did i ask that it's his 1st time skating!!!! how to trust him....

then here i go i boom!!! pull la pull some more

ok the 2nd one was me myself la

coz there is this car come can clean the ice or something so everyone was ask to stop

then we when back in, it feel different the before so i fell

and i some thing happen to my hand i dunno the word for it but ya

no blood but it hurts, it like my right hand cant go round and round and cant take heavy things

''c come on dun do this to me............

2009-11-29T00:48:00.003+08:00

idk what to do...

my weakness is i care to much

why do i care???!!!

scars over scars

cuts over cuts

when will this end???

it suppose to end

2009-11-28T23:05:00.002+08:00

the more care you show me the more i'm scare of you

i dun want anything from all of you

i have no right to take anything from you

whats gone is gone

stop doing this to me

running far far away...

yes you will miss me now

but after awhile your'll forget about me and you will not give a shit

2009-11-26T20:31:00.004+08:00

ytd was david's birthday and he is 23 no no no 17 i mean... lol

so here i wanna say that (may you wish's come true)

keep going on, keep moving on
Mr Ang can do all things

happy birthday all the best

you rox!!!! hahahs

thank you so so so so much x100000000000

here's a song for you

2009-11-25T23:52:00.005+08:00

FEAR!!!

there is lots of fear in my right now, i'm so scard

i dun wanna go this place this group anymore the part of me going

is coz that i dun wanna loss any fren-ship over there

i feel so press down

when i say i dun wanna go, they will ask why and all

i know they care but i dun want to go means i dun want to go

i feel sad to see them sad and it's sad to see then angry too

i'm scare to loss them

but i'm also scare to face them

do you know how shit-ty is this

you bring your classmate there not long ago

and your classmate come asking you that way you didnt go???

and you cannot say that you dun belive *** anymore

coz you wan them to stay

arrrrrrrrrrrrrr....

i dunno what to do

i dun wanna go

but how about my frens???

how about the fren-ship i made there???

can i just let it go like this???

this is so crazyyyyyy

2009-11-24T21:37:00.002+08:00

ok i have to say something embarrassing!!!

today was my 1st time going to seoul garden... haha funny right??

after 18 years of my life man, why coz no one bring me there

sad-ness and the thing is i dun really eat steam-boat out side as well

but i'm cool with it now...

it's nice but it's $2+.++ and i dun think i eat that much

hahas... and yet i didn't pay for it this time haha someone pay for me

hahas thanks... how i wish everyone was like this

opps

2009-11-24T01:09:00.004+08:00

school just started today for (organizational behaviour)

it's total shit-ness!!!

1) there is 15 lessons and i only can go to 8 of them

2) i have 3 assignments to pass up by 3 Dec

3) i DIS-LIKE the teacher!!!

4) the class start at 9.15AM to 12.15AM!!!

1) there are 15 lessons and i only get to go to 8 coz i'm going on over sea's, the other guy before told me that there is no lessons on Dec!!! but there is now stupid man

23 Nov, 24 Nov, 25 Nov, 26 Nov, 30 Nov, 1 Dec, 2 Dec, 3 Dec,

7 Dec, 8 Dec, 9 Dec, 10 Dec, 14 Dec, 15 Dec, 16 Dec

i only can go to the pink ones...

2) 3 assignment given today, for everyone the dead line in 22 Dec or 16 Dec

idk but for me it's the 3 Dec!!!

stupid and i know anything about organizational behavior it's like super new to me

3) why do i dis-like the teacher??? coz he teach me before he is SO SLOW

he talks like -----------------------------

i always wanna sleep in he's class but there rest of the teacher i'm right awake

hell man!!!

4) oh gosh... lesson's is starting early for this organization behavior thing-ing

i'm so not a morning person... and yet the teacher is DADADADA the worst teacher ever!!!

i'm just so gonna die!!!

after talking all about school

i think it's really time for me to study myself

coz i guess the teacher can't do much and that i only have so litter time

with no one to help i just need to do it on my own

yiling you can do it ba!!!

cell group and church

28 Nov, 29 Nov : not coming coz of sch work

5 Dec, 6 Dec : not coming coz i need to fly off on the 7 Dec

12 Dec, 13 Dec :not coming coz i'm not in town

19 Dec, 20 Dec :not coming coz i'm not in town

26 Dec, 27 Dec : dun think i'm ready to come back

the rest of the days i dun think i'm coming back too

i guess i dun get to say my last good bye to E316

after this 6 week i think it will be a habit of not coming anymore

hope i'll get use to it fast, if not it will just hurt so much

coz it's a part of my life unknowing

shhhhhhhhhhhh

i am trying to fine way not to go

it do hurt but that is something i need to do

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

sorry if i hurt you

really sorry

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

KL i know you will be reading this

but dun call me ok

till i cool down and all then i'll ring you up

i'm sorry... byebye.. ILY

the only song that i can remb which speaks my feeling right now

2009-11-24T00:52:00.002+08:00

this is the 1st time that i'm angry at this person

out of no where i just feel so pissed off

i don't like it!!! after a day i'm still kinda piss off

super super sad right now

it's pretty much a mix feeling

there is angry

there is sad

there is lost

there is guilty-ness

there is hurt

there is just so many things that i dun wanna understand

2009-11-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

2009-11-22T01:42:00.001+08:00

mi an hae yo

2009-11-22T00:19:00.002+08:00

so tired but i'm not gonna sleep today
coz it's nikki's birthday!!!
i'm so gonna send her a msg every hour
nikki just to let you know, maybe we are far apart
maybe we didn't talk for the longerst time
but i still love you so muchh
mama nikki
happy birthdayyyy
i miss you so muchh

2009-11-21T18:54:00.003+08:00

sometimes you just gotta lose

so piss off today

who what huh???

ME!!!

so piss off with myself ain't gonna talk much here

but i think this is the 1st time, i when back home right after cell group meeting didn't wanna stay for fellowship...

i just dun wanna stay there, dun wanna be around ppl

just wanna be alone and rot...

so many things that i dun understand

2009-11-21T13:14:00.001+08:00

2009-11-19T23:08:00.003+08:00

told myself so many times before

no more crying no more tears

but i just can't help it, i was trying not to let any tears out

but somehow it just fine it's own way out

no yiling your not gonna cry again!!!

i just really dislike letting my tears out

i'm so so scare, my heart is moving

this are changing heart is getting close up

i have lost my way

all i want is just to go home and be with You

i know that i cant stand any longer

i know that it's crazy, but i really sux at it....

take me home

it huts so deep inside of me

i really hurts

worlds i may not understand

2009-11-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

what do you see in this???

the same thing as what i see???

2009-11-19T17:41:00.001+08:00

Miyanae

Jweisung hamnida

2009-11-18T21:24:00.003+08:00

lost

official fail YOU again

lost of words, lost in the wall, lost lost lost

i dunno why but my heart have change

all the use to things i use to do and love

i use to love You to the mix but now???

i use to can't live a day without You but now???

i use to think about You everyday but now???

i use to want to talk to You everyday but now???

i use to do thing by asking You 1st but now???

i use to cry out to You in the nite but now???

i use to love You so much but now???

i use to give You my all but now???

so many so many things

i just feel lazy now

downdown

down

2009-11-17T02:15:00.002+08:00

i dun wanna run away, but i cant take it, i dun understand!!!

felt pretty left out...

sobsob

2009-11-16T19:36:00.003+08:00

blood donation

as what you see on the top blood donation!!!

ytd was my 2nd time donating my blood

there will be 3 needle poke-ing you

the 1st wan it's pain-ful but fast just like (tek)

the 2nd is longer and sharp the pain is like long and sharp

the 3rd one is the biggest and the one which dun hurt hahas

BUT ytd (da da da da)

the 1st one didn't hurt as much as 3 months ago

the 2nd one hurt more and longer then 3 months ago

the 3rd one HURTS!!! coz 3 months ago dun hurt

''c

feeling wired after everything 3 months ago i can really jump around and play

but ytd i jump ones and i was about to die i was acting that i'm ok

coz i'm STRONG!!!

and now after 18 years i'm sure the i'm a O+

cool huh??? heehee ^^

how many of you know that when someone is very strong on the outside

there are very very weak in the inside!!!

know something more about myself:

i'm pretty weak....

2009-11-14T01:08:00.001+08:00

can you see the tear on the paper???

love is just something that you can't push away just like that

i know that you dun like me,

but it's hard to dis-like you...

2009-11-10T02:34:00.005+08:00

what can you see in this pic???

~~ the things i see in it ~~

a sad and lost girl sitting there waiting for someone to come and take her home.

there is just too many steps for her and she just wanna sit down and rest.

the hander are just to high for her to reach.

she is far far away from the top and she cant seem's to see what is on the top.

that girl is so near to the bottom and it's easy to give up now.

she is trying her best, but no one can see it coz she is so near to the bottom

she is so close to giving up but she is willing to try again

2009-11-09T00:54:00.002+08:00

i wanna go out... i dun wanna be alone... i wanna shout...

let this pic do all the talking

2009-11-03T23:39:00.001+08:00

2009-11-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

where are you???

who are you???

2009-11-01T21:04:00.002+08:00

i have to blog about this as in i HAVE to

ok i dunno about you, BUT i do enjoy seeing running for the train

and end up. the door close right in front of them

i can't help it... (WAHAHAHHAHA)

that is something that really can make me happy for 5mins

this is way i never run after a train of a bus

NEVER!!! it is just so funny like boom hahahha

today of more of like ytd coz it's over 12 so ya

i was out looking for something

and i happen to fine out that i'm ok to be alone

the old yiling can never go out alone

never buying something alone but now things change

i kinda like to be alone

NOT being emo or what!!! is kinda nice to be alone

i'm still kinda getting use to this

now a days i just dun feel like talking much (which is good!!! i think)

so much of thing have been happen

i've been thinking and thinking theres up and down in live

this might the down but it will go up for sure i know it but i dunno when

this happen for a reason , i dunno it now, but one day i'll find out the reason behind all of this...

loving you more and more each day

Oh my gosh
i posted this at my cell group blog!!!!!!! arrr

2009-10-29T13:37:00.000+08:00

2009-10-28T01:44:00.002+08:00

heart is really getting out of shape

what to do???

keep pulling my self up

if not really happy with life but still good

and i got all my love ones with me

really sain of serving in attributes

i might not be going back lei ba

i'm really super not happy with it

SOT might be only in the dream

maybe i'm gonna hold everything down

so many wrong things are in my mind right now

idk and i dun wanna know

there is nothing much i can tell you

you say you understand but do you???

are you sure that you understand me???

what am i thinking now???

how do i feel right now???

you dunno...

hahahaha

funny joke

2009-10-25T05:26:00.002+08:00

oh no i should go see the doc soon!!! like really soon

everyday i'll be awake on my bed for 1 2 3 hours before i can sleep

then sat night i can't sleep if i sleep i can't wake up in the morning and it's a sunday morning!!!

so i have to like get up and feeling super tired

but what can i do??? i was trying to sleep just now but i just cant fall asleep

how i wish my bedroom is like that but smaller

my own time-table for every week

mo, tu, we, th, fr, sa, su

mo = school

tu = school

we = school

th = school

fr = cell group and no school work!!!

sa = rest/frens dinner with dad and mum

su = church and no school word!!!

2009-10-25T00:14:00.001+08:00

blogging soon i hope

2009-10-23T23:29:00.002+08:00

Official braking down

yiling use to be that kinda girl who dun care much

who is always happy and not thinking much

like (die die lor) like nothing can stop me

but now!!! i have to care about my future and all

it's really killing me...

need to cry out badly

sobsob

knowing more of myself ytd night

when i pull the person's bag of shirt not booking sit's

means lead me pls and that i dun wanna let you go

as in when i put someone's bag or top

in the point of time that i feel down

just that maybe i dun say but it's when i'm down and dunno which way to go and dun wanna let go

now

i dunno what to do

i can't stand strong any longer

i need someone to be with me and leading my way

i need a big hughug

i need to be happy

Jesus

what am i blogging about IDK

2009-10-22T02:25:00.002+08:00

Father thank you so much

oh how many times

have i broken Your heart

but still You forgive

if only i ask

and how many times

have You heard my pray

draw near to me

everything i need is You

my beinning my forever

everything is You

Father thank You so much

thanks for sending Jesus here to died for all sin's

father i never want to be the same

i live up my life in to Your loving hands

God good times and bad times

i'm gonna give You my all

coz their is not one like You

open Your hands for me

i'm gonna live life for You and no one else

amen!!!

100%

2009-10-20T00:13:00.004+08:00

yoghurt VS ice-cream

yes!!! you might be thinking huh??? why???

okay i'll tell you why.. if your like yiling which is me hahha

okok stop play...

if your like me, when i'm angry and down my best fren will be the ICE-CREAM

hahas i dunno why but thats what i do

sometime it do help but i still need to have it

just to cool myself down with it thats all..

i've stop eating yoghurt for a long long time coz no one buy hahha

so end up buying some home today

it helps like the way ice-cream do coz it cold and sweet like ice-cream

and i'm having it now so yeahh!!!

it kinda help in a way

i'm feeling better with it

and the thing it's so much healthier and cheper then ice-cream

so i can save up more

heeheeheehee

happy

2009-10-18T20:51:00.005+08:00

oh gosh...

what is all of this i'm really really angry i'm gonna brake soon

like what on earth after a long time, i when back to attributes today

then i have to go offf earlier coz need to take pic for visa or something like that,

then i have to go over to kamini's place after that i have dinner with tara

so i told the person i gotta go 1st then she say 1.30 like that go can

so i was thinking then i say erm ok

then after awhile she say i should stay till 3 ++ coz your serving

but i told her that i need to take the pic today and go to my fren's place

coz of the deepavali thing-ing

and she ask me if they are Christian then i say no, then she say try asking them if i can go late anot

then she say if they say cannot thing kinda of fren dun wan oso can

hello!!! what is this man?? so i only can have fren that is christian izzit???

what is this la?? i dun feel like going back to attributes man...

okay then end up i didnt when for anything when church was about to end i when home le

coz super not feeling well, feels like crazy

in the train my leg when soft then i almost fall a few times

i dunno why but at that time i feel that i can just faint

good thing i when home.. when i got home i when up to my room and die there..

feeling better now,, the feeling now is like i'm flying around

oh i wanna trow up...

is it nice to say things behind pp's back???

hello!!! is you ask me to bring you girl home then you said that i can slap her

good thing i didn't. then you go around telling everyone that your girll slap me

what it this??? btw she didn't slap me she just hit me

if i didn't ask myself to stop i think she will be dead le la..

very nice izzit??? you have to tell everyone that??

i should listen to my mother she ask me to stay away from you all

ok,, from now, i'm not gonna help you anymore val wanna do whatever i'm not gonna help le

coz my mother say so

Jesus take all this pain away from me

2009-10-17T00:12:00.002+08:00

long long time ago

you where the one i look for when i have prob

but now your not here anymore

you there for other's but not me anymore

i'm not gonna myself

i'm not gonna live life by fren's by God

when you fren's are not here for you

God is always here

you just need to seek His face

when you tired, He see's it

when you are sad, He know it

when you are happy, He is too

when you love Him, He say that He loved you more

when you have no one, He says i'm always here for you

when you close you door of your heart, He is outside Your door waiting for you too open again

now can you tel how great in He???

that great!!! super great!!! the greatest!!!

so it's ok if you down and all

you feel that the world is all coming down on you

not be scare coz God is always here for you

Jesus dead for you on the cross so no worry's

yiling pick yourself up!!! you can do it!! jia you!!!

all the tears in your eyes all the hurt you feel

no worry's someone up there know how you feel

He understands you when no one do

so dun be sad anymore ok...

trust in Him and everything will be ok soon

live life for Him coz He pick you not you pick Him

there is so many ppl in the world but it is you who He pick

so jia you na

hughug

2009-10-16T00:29:00.002+08:00

Jesus take the wheel

God i feel that i just can't take it anymore

pls take all this pain away from me

there is so many thing i need to tell ppl

i needed help but there is no one i really can fine but i did try

david and lucas working then they are busy

kailin not in singapore

then i wanna call nikki but i think she will be busy too

i dunno what to do anymore

tears just keep coming out of my eyes

God i give you my all

i printed something out for lucas i gave it to him

then i was thinking in school that i should not have printed it out

i dun want lei.. i just wanna keep it to myself

lucas is so happy i dun wanna make him (fan) coz of my prob

i oso dun wanna tell kailin lei

i dun wan i dun wan

Jesus i know that Your here with me will do

i want nothing more

2009-10-13T23:36:00.003+08:00

something WOW!!! happen today

God's doing something... yea

lets start with ytd me and and my classmate/cell group member si jie haha

ok whatever here it go...

me and si jie rush to prayer meeting ytd the 6pm to 7pm wan

guess what time we reach??? 6.49pm!!! arr-ness somemore we cab there

and it was super ex like $12... ain't liking it i don't wanna spend money anymore

need to save up for so many things:

~ $200 ASAP

~ $500 every month $100 for 6 month dec no need only

~ $1800++ by march 09

~ $200++ by march

=$2700 ~ $3000

mad-ness!!! i dun wanna go out anymore gotta save NOW!!!

ok back to what i was blogging

so there is this thing where i put my tithe for every week

so i wanted to put my tithe in the i found $6

for no where coz i tithe every week, then there is $6 inside

wow!!! so when we're rushing down when i know that when we reach it will be like the endding but we still cab there God see all of it so the cab fee was like $12 so me and si jie half half which is $6!!!

when i saw the money i was kinda lost like huh???

hahas this is so cool...

2009-10-13T01:46:00.002+08:00

i just gotta blog about thing

get out of my life already

can't you tell then i ain't care about you anymore

your too much you know i just can't take it anymore

i've tried my best it's really up to you

coz i can't do anything else

the more i need to face you the more i feel sorry for myself

funny leh

you know whatever you want to say about me

go ahead

this don't work on me

you just wanna do things over and over again BE IT!!!

i ain't living life for you, wake up
do you think that you know me??? HA

2009-10-09T00:06:00.003+08:00

what a day!!!

i kinda can't believe what happen today

like WOW!!!!

i told my mum that i'm a christian

like i told her hahha she kinda cool with it

so yeah me!!!!

good things is she still let me to go to church

and tmr's prayer meeting i can stay all the way

like God is doing something

and the wired thing is i told her who i like

and i dun think that she really likes him but who care

as long as i still can go to church, cell group, prayer meeting and SOT!!!

i'm all cool with it... hahahas

praying that by 2010 i'll get water baptism

yeah-ness!!!

2009-10-07T23:55:00.003+08:00

is this gonna be it???

your not the person i knew you were

maybe inside somewhere your still there ba

i'm pretty down now like what you did just now was not right

i know i was wrong too but it's the past

i can't change it so do you, what''s made is done

tears just row down my face but i'm gonna keep try-ing ba

thinking it's kinda funny you know

you bring me to church and yet your like this

something that i can't forget

~ i go out with you then you dun come to my church my cell group dun talk to lucas and kailin la! only this 4 things if you do then i come up with you...

~ all because of you me and my boy friend broke up

~ this is the 1st time you dare to hit me!!!

i have one word to say (HA)

like what on earth what she did was so wrong

i feel so tired of her le but God what can i do???

You don't want me to give up on her right???

this is something i gotta lean man

remb that i lean something from lucas

try your best and God will do the rest

remb last time when no one give's up on you!!!